C.R.A.Z.Y. Oh Well. How Can I Tell. Stop This Train..
September 19
Listening to Jason Mraz and having Lemon Tea in a chilled room. Not as good as it sounds. Had been waiting to get over with the chapter so I could sit here. I know its a fuckin waste of time and I should be doing other important things but.. hell.. forget.. I'v been over this a million times.. Its useless. So I had my first test today an it went way better than what I was expectingg.. It doesn't feel like its exam time.. not at all.. I sit w SidK for the test an we were talkin about it.. Just wasn't like it. No sweaty hands or anything.. Maybe I just don't care.. See how subtle I am?
So the past week has been spent listening to Continuum and Razorlight's Up All Night..And Mayer has somehow managed to kill me.. again.. Always fuckin writing about what I feel. Like growing up.. movin out.. the unpredictability of life after college which seems so exciting and scary at the same time. Stop This Train.. thas what its all about.. on more than a single level.. Its like.. the song was written particularly for people like graduating next year and goin out on a train for their jobs or post grads or whatever.. or tht major change in life which scares u sometimes.. or just life itself..
Then there's Slow Dancing In A Burning Room... which completely nails it.. its about what is gonna happen in the last couple of months of college between Me an Anne.. Each an every word.. and most of the stuff tht I try and avoid talking about change topics.. Its awesome.. The way he comes up with all those killing metaphors.. Slow dancing in a burning room.. again.. its about time running out and how thers not much you can do about it. its about the end and how you try to avoid lookin at it in the eye. Its probably the song that I'll be using to warn her of whats coming.. thanks j. but thawud be next yr.. which doesn't seem so distant anymore. I can picture myself listening to those two songs next year.. Though I'll probably stop listening to SDIBR once its over.. In the meantime.. I'm probably gonna try and be good to her.. She deserves it. She's good to me too. To the point where I start feeling uncomfortable.. cuz I dunno what I've done to deserve such princely treatment.
Tomorrow is Software Engineering.. Another useless subject.. with all sorts of theoretical shit meant for ppl who plan to go in for a PhD. Cuz as far as I know.. nobody uses all these dumb obsolete models in software programming except in textbooks for engineering students.
Shit. I'm gonna get back to my book. I gotta do atleast 2 more chapters.. which means reading another 80 pages or so.. Which means.. taking a speed of about 3 mins/page to actually understand the stuff... about 240 mins.. or 4 hrs.. That means even if I study continuously starting in another 20 mins.. I'll be studyin till 630 in the morning.. and will hav to wake up at 830 again for the havan for Chaiji's sharaad. which means I'll be screwing up day afters exam in the process.. wudnt it be better to slp now an study properly for day afters exam? Networking? No. so fuck off.
" Fear is a friend whose misunderstood,
I know the heart of life is good."
- John Mayer, The Heart of Life (Continuum)
So the past week has been spent listening to Continuum and Razorlight's Up All Night..And Mayer has somehow managed to kill me.. again.. Always fuckin writing about what I feel. Like growing up.. movin out.. the unpredictability of life after college which seems so exciting and scary at the same time. Stop This Train.. thas what its all about.. on more than a single level.. Its like.. the song was written particularly for people like graduating next year and goin out on a train for their jobs or post grads or whatever.. or tht major change in life which scares u sometimes.. or just life itself..
Then there's Slow Dancing In A Burning Room... which completely nails it.. its about what is gonna happen in the last couple of months of college between Me an Anne.. Each an every word.. and most of the stuff tht I try and avoid talking about change topics.. Its awesome.. The way he comes up with all those killing metaphors.. Slow dancing in a burning room.. again.. its about time running out and how thers not much you can do about it. its about the end and how you try to avoid lookin at it in the eye. Its probably the song that I'll be using to warn her of whats coming.. thanks j. but thawud be next yr.. which doesn't seem so distant anymore. I can picture myself listening to those two songs next year.. Though I'll probably stop listening to SDIBR once its over.. In the meantime.. I'm probably gonna try and be good to her.. She deserves it. She's good to me too. To the point where I start feeling uncomfortable.. cuz I dunno what I've done to deserve such princely treatment.
Tomorrow is Software Engineering.. Another useless subject.. with all sorts of theoretical shit meant for ppl who plan to go in for a PhD. Cuz as far as I know.. nobody uses all these dumb obsolete models in software programming except in textbooks for engineering students.
Shit. I'm gonna get back to my book. I gotta do atleast 2 more chapters.. which means reading another 80 pages or so.. Which means.. taking a speed of about 3 mins/page to actually understand the stuff... about 240 mins.. or 4 hrs.. That means even if I study continuously starting in another 20 mins.. I'll be studyin till 630 in the morning.. and will hav to wake up at 830 again for the havan for Chaiji's sharaad. which means I'll be screwing up day afters exam in the process.. wudnt it be better to slp now an study properly for day afters exam? Networking? No. so fuck off.
" Fear is a friend whose misunderstood,
I know the heart of life is good."
- John Mayer, The Heart of Life (Continuum)
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