Human mind is rather complex by nature. If you think that being able to put your feelings to words makes you good at words, you're wrong. It means that you're don't really know how you feel. The only feeling that is probably that simple is that of victory, and nothing but victory.. you have to count out everything that went into it. Hardwork, emotion, luck. And that feeling is so pure that its almost physical.. Like an orgasm. Can you put that feeling into words? What? Orgasmic? Lol. Fuck you. This is just how primitive we all are at communicating. We can't even fuckin communicate our own bloody feelings. If you still think that what you say is exactly how you're feeling, then you're fucking dumb. Thats what you are. I got logic to back me.
I'm not 21 yet. Still 4 months away. (My 2/3rd birthday tomorrow.) One of the very few things that I've learnt from experience are... and I quote from someplace I can't recall.. that there's no black or white. Its all grey. Everybody has a grey side. Everyone human who does not suffer from genetic disorders. All of us have feelings that no one in the world would ever know. The grey ones. The white and black ones are easily concealed and just as easily predicated. I've spoken to 10,000 people and I have a habit of quoting the same bloody example for a particular topic of discussion. Like the one about attending a funeral but thinking about how desperately you're waiting to get into your wife's sister's bed. Like Khanna, who told me that he asked Kanika to not put up with Urv. cuz Urv. imposed herself on her, and when I confronted him and asked for the real reason, he couldn't come up with it himself. Like all the things that I did/am doing. They can never be explained. To anyone. This is why millions of people have come up with personal blogs. In an effort to be able to express themselves. Because there's no such thing as a "BLOG COMMUNITY" or a "BLOG SOCIETY" to really live in. And still, our vocabulary is just too fuckin limited for all our feelings. Because of words that don't exist, words that can't fucking describe a mixture of more than 2 feelings, words which have to be spoken/written simply to enhance the description of our emotions (like fucking, bloody, shitty, dumb, etc.), we're all fucking crippled. Crippled by words. And that is the power of words.
Feelings > Words > Us.
And there you have it. A logically derived inequality which proves that we are nothing in front of our own feelings and emotions. They are what we ultimately give in to, submit to. They're the real Gods, the ones that we pray to, the ones that make us give up, and more importantly, the ones that help us believe, that no matter how weak we might be infront of them, they'll always be a part of us. Always be a part of me. Please.
