Magic Man.

October 31, 2006.
1:40 am.

Song: When A Man Loves A Woman (Percy Sledge)
Cigarette Count: 4 + half J.

1:43am, an I've just sent Aki an All the best message for her GRE tomorrow. Just watched an episode of The Wonder Years, titled "Dance With Me". When I was younger and they used to air this show on Star TV, they used to fondly compare me and Kaki with Kevin and Paul. And if things had turned out even a little different from the way they turned out to be, Acknd would've been Vinnie, if not for that fateful chat in which I told her I considered as my younger sister. What the hell was I supposed to do? Ask her out? I was in 8th and she's a couple of years younger. But anyways, they say that teen age sets things right. Actually they don't. I used to say that when I was 12. The highly confidential and top secret crush which lasted for a about a year faded, with a bunch of girls here and there during the next 2 years, Including, Anukriti, Pratima Roy, and, Neha Sinha. She changed schools and the herself, grew up, but not really what I'd call right. I've still adored her as my little sister, and a special friend. And we don't get to see each other as much anymore, but I still sorta pray that she turns out well.
Neha Sinha happened in 7th, and at 1 stage, I had a crush on 4 girls. I didn't have much interaction or eye contact with Pratima though. So me, a 7th class student at the time, was looking out basically for the other 3, sometimes strongly flirting with Anukriti and Acknd. By the beginning of 9th though, those 2 had faded completely and I was obsessed with Neha Sinha. She had joined school in 7th, and was 5'8", with beautiful parted hair that touched both her shoulders. Excellent in academics, and a brilliant voice on the mic when she spoke. And, most importantly, she was witty and wasn't scared to discuss sex with guys then (I had only managed to overhear parts of conversations between her and other guys of her class), and that was.. so cooooll. I was in awe of her, obsessed with her, and followed her everywhere during the breaks and common games periods. And well, obviously she had noticed me, the almost bearded weirdo,(I hadn't stared shaving then, and I have a hair growth comparable to bears.) following her with my skinny balding friend, who used to update me about her whereabouts. And then I got to know that he liked her too. And it made sense, didn't it? The sonovabitch always knew where she could be found, and could follow her around all the time, posing as my friend. I confronted him and he admitted. He's a good chap, Nitin.
So anyway, we had a Magic show in the school hall by some dumbass chap who played some horrible music to accompany his show, and I followed her around the chairs, and kept staring at her, till she turned to me and mouthed the words, "STOP STARING AT ME!". And for the first time in my life, I got that sick, sick heavy as lead feeling in my stomach, with which I'm so familiar with now. What I had been doing was wrong. The word given to it was 'stalking'. Later after the break, I was called back from the class line by one of the prefects, who was Sinha's brothers friend, and warned not to do it again, or else... Whatever. I never did that again, and I could never face her again, let alone talk to her. And for the next 3 years, I kept dreaming, making up lines to say to her at the school farewell, an apology, or some way to let her know that I wasn't the cheap bastard she thought I was. The dumb school farewell we had, I never got a chance to even get close to her.  The next two years after school at the alumuni dinner, I went, secretly hoping that I'd get to talk to her and clear things out, but she didn't come. And I know she'd probably turn away if she ever saw me in the marketplace or anywhere else. Hell, that happened after school too. And a lot of other things too. If given a chance, I know I'd still like to know her. One of the very few regrets that I still carry with me.

So anyways, I was talking about The Wonder Years, and the episode, if I didn't mention, was titled, "Dance With Me", where they have a school dance, and Kevin asks a girl out, who agrees, and then backs out, (Bitch!@#!@),  and then he asks Vinnie out for the dance, but she tells him shes already agreed to go with some 8th grader. So he's left dissappointed and goes to the dance with Paul, where Paul also gets a girl. And then Vinnie arrives, looking like an angel, dressed in white, and Kevins jaw drops. He tries to get her jealous by asking another girl to dance with him, and when it all appears useless, he walks out of the hall to sit on the stairs, dejected. Vinnie appears, they talk, and go back in, and dance to a Percy Sledge number, arm in arm.
You know there'll be other girls in your life and the other boys in her life, but for the moment, if you have the chance, hold on to her. Somehow, these 20 minute narrations end up moving you, cuz they're about the life of a 7th grader, what he finds cool, and what kind of girl he falls for. And you know that no matter how much you grow up, somewhere inside you, that 7th grader is still there, and he makes you jump at the sight of her, and stare in awe at her like theres no tomorrow.
The closest song I could find, to the one they dance to in the end, was the other Percy Sledge number that I had. So there. Thats why the song is still playing on repeat.

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Cut to present, October 31st, 2006. I spend the whole day, almost frustrated cuz of lack of activity. I can't study, and theres noone to call to talk to or go out for a walk/smoke with, and theres no match on either. Minutes pass as days, and finally MadMan gets home, with his cousin With-It. We go out for some chaat, and then for a smoke. MadMan's friends arrive and kidnap him. So With-It from Bombay lights a J which we share, and talk about this and that. The With-It guy I used to know 13 yrs back, before he had shifted to Bombay, had changed, and he smoked # everyday. Later at dinner, I sit on the bed all dazed and stare at the tv, till it starts snowing all over on the screen, and I realize the cable wallah is a dumbass. So what, do you ask, could be worse? The internet doesn't work either. So I walk into my room to find my Dad on the computer, complaining about the internet connection, with "engin*****tobac**.blogspot.com" written in the address bar. Phew? Phew!. A little later, me and my sis, we sit down to watch Le Double Vie De Veronique (The Double Life Of Lady Veronica). First shot, boob shot. Later on, the girl starts crying while the psycho jumps on her and fucks her. And as it always happens, whenever my sis sits for a movie with me, it always has a pathetic end.

Bomber go'n die. This my 2nd cd he ruin. This his 2nd consecutive recomendation which suck. ET punch Bomber. ET kill Bomber. Bomber is bastard.